This is my story of dedication (for getting into my dream school), belief (in God), courage (to regain the confidence I have lost), and hope (in eventually, finding my Romeo). Let's see how it all works out.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

i don't cuss much, but...

He took the damp cloth. Twisted it. Wrangled it. Ironed it. Dried it. He did everything plausible to get rid of the water. Well, He is society, whether that be the government, America, or a classroom full of teenagers. And that water? That damn water is the awkward people in life. The people that don't fit the status quo. 
I don't want to take a stance on homosexuality. I can't take a stance. Something as significant and controversial and more importantly, emotional as homosexuality can't be summed up in sentences...or paragraphs...or pages. It's all in my tiny head, jumbled up and confused.
However, what I do know, is that I have no right to judge people because on a little thing like their sexuality. Who am I tell to you what to believe in? Who are you to mindlessly listen to what I say?
Unfortunately, not everyone believes like that. Majority of this world has been brainwashed by who knows what (and religious experts out there, don't point to the Bible, the Torah, or the Quran) into thinking that hey everyone has to be the same. Everyone has to be perfect.And because of those apathetic, belligerent people, thousands of people (kids, teenagers, adults) have committed suicide to escape the harsh words said by these ruthless individuals. And let me tell you, a suicide is a homicide: after every suicide, someone [a friend, a parent, a sibling] dies from inside; they wither in pain, recluse in a corner, counting their own final seconds. 
It's awful. It's awful. It's awful.
I'm typing this right now...and I'm crying. I don't understand. I don't understand how our society has transformed into this murderer...into this evil Satan. 
I don't understand. I never will. I'll just pray for not only the homosexual people who committed suicide, but for their moms, their dads, their siblings, their friends, all who are waking up, every day, with tears rolling down their eyes, just hoping to see that one person. But most importantly, I'll be praying for this damned society. God, help them realize what they've done. 


  1. I completely agree. It is unbelievable what our society has become.

  2. Woo! I like that you were able to be so emotional without taking a stance. Very cool. I hope you wore purple yesterday for Spirit Day!

    The idea of suicide being a homicide is interesting. Sort of homicide by negligence of society, right?

  3. Very well written. I completely agree with you, it is terrible how unaccepting the world is of people who are different from them. One of the kids that committed suicide, Tyler Clementi, was a freshman at my college; the whole campus was really distraught over the ordeal, and I am sure many of the students still are to this day.

  4. @zareena: :)

    @wair blaldorf: yes! because of our carelessness, we are causing these people to commit suicide which in turn hurts there families and friends.

    @rinny: thank you! and oh my God! i'm so so sorry. it must have been a huge thing at your school to go through all of that! RIP Tyler.



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